Forever My Everything
I hear your voice, but your not there.
While lying in bed I can feel your arms
wrap around my body. A strong embrace
I long for, but will never feel again.
My love,
I miss you.
I need you so much that I can barely
get out of bed. You said you’d be
back later that night. Just a night out
with your best friend. Your friend,
just an average Joe from the look of him.
Nothing special, or so I thought.
Fishing, something you’ve always enjoyed.
I never understood the way that waiting
on a boat just sitting there gave you such joy.
It gave your friend joy, it gave him pleasure
To murder you in cold blood. He dumped
Your lifeless body into the ocean.
Betrayal and anger must have filled your eyes.
Did you have time to feel hate?
He had time to contemplate the way that
he’d end your life. I have time for hate,
I feel no spec of understanding to what he has done.
You were there for him, for his pain of his divorce
And he takes it out on you, his bestfriend.
You were not like me though, you were not angry.
Never once did you get angry, I never understood
You like that. But I always admired that about you.
I’ve always said I would try not to be angry.
I’ve always used the excuse I am stubborn.
I am, and you know the better than anyone.
But, there’s one thing that you knew though,
That I would do anything for you;
I’d always try my best, just for you.
Nothing was too great, and nothing could be too hard
They read your will today. I sat in our lawyer’s office
in the oversized leather chairs in front of a large
dark wooden desk. I’ve never come here alone,
you were always by my side, you were my rock.
What the lawyer told me was tough to listen to.
You must be hell-bent on breaking me of this habit.
For stated in your will it said:
To my loving wife:
I don’t know how long I have on this earth,
but I must tell you that the time I’ve had
that I have been blessed. To be with
someone who has such passion and strength
I am a lucky man. Not knowing when I will
go, just remember that I love you.
And no matter how far away I am from you
that I am always in your heart.
Try to be strong for the kids, they’ll need you.
And I know that you’ll need them more.
I want to ask you to do something for me.
My darling, I wish to be cremated.
I want to be surrounded by the endless
waves and wildlife of the ocean.
My love for you is endless and I want to
have my life celebrated and remembered
Spread my ashes over the tranquil Indian Ocean.
It’s so beautiful there, remember our honeymoon?
Revisit it for me, and spread my ashes.
It’ll be our last rendezvous together.
Remember my love,
Always forgive, and understand that something’s
are out of your hands. Use your temper for good
not for hate. Share your passion with the world.
Just always remember that I love you.
After his will was read my mind ran wild.
I love you too, but you upset me, is all I could think.
Damn, you are right. But how could you understand,
If you were in my shoes you’d be in the same boat that I am.
You would make me return to the Mahe Islands in Seychelles.
I will go, of course you know I would. I don’t want to, but
I have no choice, I adore you even though you push my buttons.
Fear, is something I know I have to face. I’d rather avoid it,
I’d rather be here with you with Sebastian and Skye.
I want our family back but I can’t live like that, you’re right.
For you and our family I’ll be strong. But don’t expect me to
Be happy about it, remember that I am stubborn and stubborn
Is what I know best.
My love,
I miss you always, our children miss you.
Home’s where the heart is and I’m in yours like you are in mine.
Never far away. We went to the Indian Ocean, once again
Surrounded by the beauty of the view, it was breathtaking.
I could feel your presence in the gusts of wind.
A silent I love you, and thank you floats to my ears.
Rest in peace my darling, I’ll always love you.