Apology Poem #3

To my little sister,



I was turning eighteen, jus t a few weeks left. I was on the home stretch
and I thought I was doing well. I had put it out of my head and just wanted
to put up with it. I had to be strong, I didn’t want to leave. I had to stay here
for him. I knew how upset he’d be if I’d left. But I couldn’t do it, I don’t think
they’ll ever understand.

When I left I came to live with mom, I don’t know if you remember the day.
I always wanted to be here with you but I didn’t think I had it in me. I do now.
I want to be here to support you and to be on your side. You’re so young,
I didn’t want you to be here all alone. But here’s the thing, I owe you an apology.
I was so selfish; I didn’t want to leave him to come here. Here, not much of a home,
But it was where you are. Someone needed to be on your side to be here to protect you.

Since she doesn’t do a good job, you had to stick up for yourself for so long. She’s so
Much bigger then you are, I don’t know how long you’ve been able to be strong.
You’re only six years old and you never fought back. Don’t worry I’m here now.
I’ll stick up for you and make sure your voice is heard. I’m just sorry I wasn’t here
Sooner. It’s gotten bad, the way she raises her voice, but you’re not alone anymore.

You’ve got me and a few other people here now. You’ll never be alone as long
As I’m alive. A little girl so fragile and unaware of the real world. Someone needs
To be there to protect you and I swear as your older sister I’ll always be here.
No matter what happens in your future, good or bad. You can always count on me.

Benediction Poem

A Stroke of Good Fortune


Learn that you cannot command things.
There will always be road blocks,
But it is your job to overcome them.
Don’t let a bump in the road misguide you.

Stay focused on the path that you want to follow.
Remember your weaknesses and improve
With every chance you get.
Be daring and brave with the unknown.

No one person can overcome destiny,
But you all have the power to write what you choose.
Embrace the good times and the bad.
Remember to make the decisions that you want and
To always follow your heart.

Anger Poem

Fraudulent Trickster

You’re gone again; you’ve left me waiting for you.
A quick phone call. You excused yourself like you always do.
I am a women and like any women I know what your doing.
Your tricks and games that you play. I’ve caught on.
I’ve seen that hidden smile and twinkle in your eye,
The way that your secret conversation brings you such pleasure.

Two wrongs don’t make a right, and when your gone and I lay in bed at night alone
I think of you. And the person who your probably laying with instead of me.
I’ve played it out in my head. Why is she so much better then me? What qualities does she posses that makes you love her more then me? I’ve blame myself and for what purpose? To make me feel like I did something wrong? Or to make you look like your not the sinful man that you truly are.

You will not lay in bed with me no more.
You my dear have slept next to me for the last time.
No longer will I be put on the back burner so you can sneak around town.
You want to run with the bulls, and you want to sip wine with other women.
If you want to be free then I will set you free.
I have cut the ties that keep you attached to me.

Go away stray dog, this is not your home and I will not feed you any longer.
This bed that you have made full of lies is one I hope your proud of.
I will not give in to you like I have in the past.
With your sweet warm dark eyes and your heart melting smile.
You can go blind; you can loose all your teeth.
I see through you, and all I see when I look at you is nothing.

Nonexistent is what you have become to me.
It’s not like you were really here anyways, your heart and your mind
Always wandered away from me. I don’t know the person that you have become but I can tell you this.
I hate you,
I despise you.
You no god self absorbed sad excuse for a man!

Ring.

Not now, now is not the time for interruptions.
My mother, why is she calling me.
No mom I do not have time for this.
He’s doing it again, he’s out there.
I cannot sit here and talk to you.
I have to go, I don’t know what I will do.
Leave me alone mother!
Goodbye.

A man, at least what you wish to be.
Just a boy playing dress up is what you really are.
Immature child, you really had me fooled.
Consider this game over.
You can find yourself a new other.

I will do the same. I will find another too.
Someone more significant and only one.
One, a number you can not comprehend.
Selfish bastard, rot in hell.
I hope that arms that hold you at night keep you warm.
I hope she can make you laugh and smile like you did with me.

You said you could never find another one like me.
Have you?
Did you really find another woman as good as me?
Or someone better?

I wonder if you have thought about me when you’re with them.
I don’t even think you thought of me.
Never considered my feelings.
Monogamy is something I believe in.
But you can’t keep it in your pants long enough to even say I love you.
You’re always out the door running.

Scared foolish little boy.
You can search forever because you will never find another one like me.
I am only one of its kind,
And this rare jewel is finished with you.