Apology Poem #3

To my little sister,



I was turning eighteen, jus t a few weeks left. I was on the home stretch
and I thought I was doing well. I had put it out of my head and just wanted
to put up with it. I had to be strong, I didn’t want to leave. I had to stay here
for him. I knew how upset he’d be if I’d left. But I couldn’t do it, I don’t think
they’ll ever understand.

When I left I came to live with mom, I don’t know if you remember the day.
I always wanted to be here with you but I didn’t think I had it in me. I do now.
I want to be here to support you and to be on your side. You’re so young,
I didn’t want you to be here all alone. But here’s the thing, I owe you an apology.
I was so selfish; I didn’t want to leave him to come here. Here, not much of a home,
But it was where you are. Someone needed to be on your side to be here to protect you.

Since she doesn’t do a good job, you had to stick up for yourself for so long. She’s so
Much bigger then you are, I don’t know how long you’ve been able to be strong.
You’re only six years old and you never fought back. Don’t worry I’m here now.
I’ll stick up for you and make sure your voice is heard. I’m just sorry I wasn’t here
Sooner. It’s gotten bad, the way she raises her voice, but you’re not alone anymore.

You’ve got me and a few other people here now. You’ll never be alone as long
As I’m alive. A little girl so fragile and unaware of the real world. Someone needs
To be there to protect you and I swear as your older sister I’ll always be here.
No matter what happens in your future, good or bad. You can always count on me.